had as short episode today.
but I'm fine now.
it's o.k.

Having my coffee

Looking at old messages.

Revisiting a year tha's coming to an end.

Still the same old me or has something changed?

Maybe to both.

I feel freer.

That's for sure.

Less concerned with what others think.

But the anxiety comes in once in a while.

When it happens I fill my head with thoughts of thankfulness, with thoughts of family and friends, and it eases away.

Fill your head with good things.

Your body too.

Merry christmas.

a middle age man with morning wood.
that's it.
morning.
am.
mañana.
early.
temprano.
it lasted
very little.
got soft.
limp.

there's a silence tonight.
unusual.
just the sounds of crickets.
and in the distance, is that a wave crashing?

I have a new camera.
practicing with it.
I feel good behind the lens now.
I feel more sure of myself.
capturing a moment
here and there.
an instant.
and I shot it.

forgiving my faults.
forgiveness.
I forgive others.
why is it so hard to forgive myself?
Why do I only demand perfection from me?
damn.
fuck.

my 4 inch cock yearns for you.
I know it's funny, so small.
I know.

some wine
some dreams
a bit of fantasy
a lot of music
you next to me
dancing
you feel so amazing
do me
I will do you
some more
tonight

there you all are
doing the same things.
drinking
and pretending it's great
when I know you all want to be someplace else.
but you take your photo,
place it on Instagram.
and fake a toast.
still doing that.
I'm glad I'm not.

here's my small dick.
tiny.
small.
it's what I have, you know.
suck it if you want to.
put it inside you,
it's small.
(it's o.k.)

you touched my neck so gently
and I almost came.