It's been a while since I've been here.
I feel good.
The anxiety is pretty much under control, although there are days when for a moment or so it comes back.
Been trying to be more in the here and now.

There are moments of peace
And I'm learning to enjoy them
Used to be impossible for me to find that place.
Now it's different.
I can find it.

I wish I knew how to feel about it.
Mixed feelings?
Maybe that's simply it.
It could be that simple.
But at night it gets complicated.
at 3am I become restless and strange.
then it gets better.

This blog was born of pain
of self pity.
of alcohol.
of feeling sorry for myself.

I am past that now.
I am starting over.
In my life.
In my online presence.

Closed down my Flickr, my Tumblr.

I am not closing this one down,
but I am rebuilding it.

I will delete a lot of it.
Simply because I am not that person anymore.