sudden moves.
Friday afternoon.
talk about the future.
unsure about things.
a glass of water.
a smile.
sun is out.

can I ask you something?
real quick.
it's a short one.
like
How are you?
and things such as that.
can you answer?

taking it easy this time.
not trying to think too ahead.
let go.
smile.
everything happens.
it does.

Yesterday I became concerned

About what people think of me.

My weirdness.

My eccentricities.

My not so normal life.

I had not thought about it for a long time.

Figuring the older one gets, the less one worries about such things.

But for some reason, those thoughts have come back.

Thoughts rushing by.

They don't leave me alone.

Mind please be calm.

Be calm.

It is so hard to see this.

I hold your hand so frail.

You are fading.

Although for moments the smile comes through.

I am losing you to time.

To life.

To eternity.

I hold your hand.

Can't let go.

en realidad es no tener miedo.
ver la aventura envuelta.
algo así.

ya casi no escribo aquí.
en realidad lo hacía cuando estaba lleno de dudas y ansiedades.
y ya no lo estoy tanto.
era un desahogo.
ahora ando con mi cámara, ya no escribo como antes.
pero está bien.
no hay problema.

Loud bar.
what are you saying?
Oh, yes.
well, time flies.
let me escape.

I can be stronger.

I know I can.

If I try.

And I can.

I can be a better man.

Of course.

Stay a while

And you'll see.

hoy dejé que algo relativamente insignificante me arruinara la mañana. Me puse tan nervioso que derramé mi jugo en Starbucks. De pronto me dije, oye, lo único para pensar así es si fuera algo de salud. pero no lo es. Es algo que me imagino se puede arreglar mañana. Un simple problema de la casa de agua.

Me asusta lo frágil que a veces soy.

why bother?
to be letdown again?
to be told "let's be friends again"?
to walk home alone once more?
maybe I'll give it shot anyway.
I'm like that sometimes.
but I can see
that walk home.
I can breath it.
(even though I still don't know what
to do)