Well.

That's that.

Today's another day.

Let me make the best of that.

Look at me.
will you?
for a second that's all.
give me a chance
it won't take long.
see me differently.
it's not so hard if you try.
feel more for me.
realize
there's
someone here.
(so I hope you do)
but I know it will never happen.
it will never come true.
ok.
Look at me.
(will you?)

so I should stop with all the what ifs,
and just look,
at this at this, at this.

feeling relaxed.
feeling good. calm.
(content)
yes.

I knew it.

I've lost my love fot it.

Just realized that.

But deep inside i've known about it.

It's ok.

Actually I feel great.

That should tell me something. I 

A smile.
A song.
Thoughts rushing.

She made me smile
when we talked at noon.
I want her
but it's no use.
In the what if world,
she's tops.
But I know where to dare
and where I should not.
She made me feel good
for a few minutes.
Which is not bad
in reality
and in my dreams.

This will not matter tomorrow.
Not at all.

Salsa music on the speaker.
Coffee next to me.
Forgot to put sugar in it.
I am drinking it like this.

A photo of this moment.
Only in my mind.
Ok.
There.

Sorry for being like this.
For treating so badly.
I am sorry.
Will you forgive me?
(I do, i do)

Waking up.
Everything is quiet.
My mind is not.