so what is is you want?
are you sure what it is?
its late
but tomorrow
you're still you.
choose wisely.
chose right.
close your eyes.
and dream a bit.
(and when you wake up
take a chance)

helpless sometimes.
sad, sometimes.
but less so
every day.
seeing things.
noticing.
and taking my time.

used to laugh
at people searching for meaning.
until I found myself doing just that.
maybe searching more for wisdom.
and found some things that
gave me peace of mind.
in Buddhism.
in Christianity.
in Tao.
in the words of poets.
and suddenly
I felt better.
words written many years ago.
I found peace.
for now, at least.

it was our little secret so many years back.
the having a few beers.
and the curiosity.
the jokes.
the teasing.
the decision to go for it.
seeing your cock.
touching it.
feeling it grow.
putting it in my mouth.
(so that's how it feels like)
laughing. playing.just fun, you see.
we didn't know what to do, really.
so we stroked each other
and came.
our little secret.
it's still safe with me.

feeling better since I changed a few things.
the way I eat.
the way I think.
the exercise routine.
I like the changes.