worst panic attack in years.
thank goodness I had the medication close to me.
and in a few moments it was gone.
Same sudden feelings that I'm about to die.
Same irrational fears.
Even though people tell me I'm healthy,
I still believe there is something wrong with me.
any unusual thing I turn into a catastrophe.
It makes me angry I'm doing this to myself.
Torturing myself for no reason.
Doing this to me is so stupid.
But at the moment of panic, it is serious and real.
damn.